Thanks for the responses, guys
I used to take Ritalin and Modafinil (at different periods) for fatigue. Ritalin wore off with stimulation (tolerance, I suppose) and modafinil was always like a sugar pill for me (I never felt more awake on it).
I then went on Wellbutrin which has been great for energy, motivation, etc.
I have tried most all types of meds for anxiety (not MAOIs... yet) - and no effect.
My psych wanted me to go on Xanax. He said despite the bad press, etc. he has successfully treated people on a low dose for years without any problems.
I do not have an addictive personality so am not so worried about the addictive nature of benzos. The physical dependence is a different matter, but I am happy to take it long-term if it will help me - like a diabetic with insulin.
Very frustrated I felt nothing with Xanax - I was hoping I might at least get temporary relief, just to see what life could be like...
Will consider upping to 0.5MG, but am not sure how my psych will see this.
I tried Mirtazapine and doubled my dose secretly when feeling nothing, but where I live, you need to call a special phone number to get government authorisation before prescribing Zanax. Because it's more restricted, I don't know how I can tell him I tried doubling it without him being annoyed/suspicious. I see him in 4 weeks.
He's generally very nice, and has always been open to my suggestions. He prescribed me mirtazapine on my suggestion, Wellbutrin, etc.
Might look into Ativan to, if this works in a different way.
Many thanks again guys