I just saw a psychiatrist today and he told me Zoloft can be "stimulating", basically cause more anxiety. He prescribed me Lexapro and Klonopin.
Zoloft isn't known for being particularly stimulating. For most patients it's quite neutral. One interesting thing I recall from reading the whole FDA label for Zoloft was that their clinical trials showed that it causes both insomnia & drowsiness; two polar opposite effects in different patient all taking the same med. In both cases the incidence of drowsiness & insomnia was twice that of the placebo control group. This would be a perfect illustration of how meds can work totally different for different people.
I took Zoloft for 3 months years ago, going up to 300 mg/day. I didn't notice any stimulation at all, but now drowsiness either. I stopped after 3 months as it clearly didn't help me. The only thing it did was totally kill sex drive, making it worse than taking nothing. At least nothing, while doing nothing to help, doesn't cause sexual side effects.
My new p-doc was militant anti-benzo, telling me I could end up in a rehab center.
Sure you could end up in a rehab center. You could also be run over by a bus on the way to see this doc. Many things could happen, though aren't at all likely. The fact that you have hundreds of pills saved up (just as I do) is a clear indication to me that you're not some junkie. Junkies don't have a stockpile as they consumed 'em all ASAP.
Wouldn't you just love to ask this doc that if they hate benzos what pills do that have up their sleeve that more efficacious? In 2012 using an anti-anxiety drug to treat anxiety is deemed wild & crazy. Today we like to use ADs & anti-psychotics to treat anxiety.
I'd love to see pdocs forced to actually try the meds they push on their patients. I once had a doctor say to me "you've got bigger problems" when I complained of the sexual side effects of some AD that didn't even work anyhow. My thought: yeah, it appears the problem weights about 170 pounds & is an arrogant jerk who doesn't given a damn what his patients think. He didn't seem to comprehend that when it comes to mental illness the patient himself pretty much defines if something is a problem or not. Basically, something is a mental problem if it causes the patient distress or interferes with their ability to function so sure seems like problems are patient-defined and one should thus listen to the patient define the problem. The only exception would be something like antisocial personality disorder where some psychopath kills folks and feels no distress about it whatsoever.