Thanks a lot guys for all the input! I am currently experimenting still by using Valium yesterday at first, then a bit of KPin to stop that weird wall effect that I felt before (which did seem to work very well, except I don't like that KPin takes a bit longer to fully function, while Valium seems to start working faster but also depleting faster as well). Today I took only KPin just for comparison.
To be honest, it did help me be very talkative like usual, and I actually didn't need to take a full .5 pill of it today (probably because for the past few days I didn't really take it so my tolerance dropped). And surprisingly, I wasn't sweating that much or anything like usual also? But that may be because I was wakeboarding yesterday for like 2 hours straight (I haven't really wakeboarded much at all this summer but I love it, and yesterday my parents were taking their boat out of the water so I wanted to get one last session in) and was extreemmmellyy warn out and tired and in an insane amount of pain (my muscles are ridiculously sore now, which tends to happen afterward if my body's not used to that much) and I fell badly and messed up my neck. So perhaps just me using all my energy yesterday (and I didn't get much sleep last night) caused me to not have much in me to really sweat out hah.
And to istayhome, I actually have a really fast metabolism. Not only with normal food and liquid consumption but with drugs as well. For example, when I was on probation I had drug tests and at times my adderall or klonopin wouldn't show up at all even though I would take it a couple days before or such. Also, that may be potentially why I am able to take such low doses for effect.
And to rustybob, I totally feel ya on the browser crash... I've had that happen to me WAYYYY to many times to count. It's actually now a constant worry of mine every time I write a forum post or something else really long (although its not always a crash, sometimes just a website server timeout or something that sucks). My method has always been to periodically hit CTRL+A and then CTRL+C so I'd copy it all, that way in case something happens I have an at least recent portion of it still copied and ready to be pasted
. But thanks for taking the time to do the first, and THEN redo it again still in a summary (some would just give up afterward lol). I do seem to respond pretty well to the Valium, except it is hard to get the right dose because I have to cut the 10mg pills up into 4ths and then still have it be uneven and try to take some more of a dif. 4th and end up just having powder and etc... But it does seem (at least from my short period of trying it) that I really need Adderall to go with it. It still has been to soon to completely tell.
I finally hit 18 less than half a year ago so I'm still new to the whole 'being able to go to my own doc' scene. But I do know that there's not THAT many psych doctors around my area (mainly because most all work in the same buildings, so if you switch they kinda just learn all from their coworker who was your doc before). Plus, I'm on my parents insurance and their paying for it all so I don't want them to have to deal with all the expenses of switching and seeing new ones as well.
Furthermore, I have scheduled an apt. with my doc this Wednesday afternoon to see what I can do. Except I'm still not sure if I should focus on asking about only beta blockers, or the Valium or such. Mainly because I only will be able to ask about one or the other (otherwise I'll get one, and she'll be a little nervous Rx'ing me all this stuff at once when we haven't had a face to face meeting in a few months). If I just try for beta blockers, then I probably will continue getting my other medication fine, but then if I try for a different benzo, I know she will be iffy and may do it, but then we'd have to go in a whole debate about how and why my KPins not working for me and about doses and such and I really don't want that to just be the total focus of our meeting.
Idk yet, hah I'm highly indecisive
Thanks for the replies still guys, this forum has really been helpful for just the few days I've been a member!