hi guys and girls
im new to this thread and i joined mainly to get more information about my "condition" i am mainly suffering from depression but i didnt want to join a depression forum because the forum ironically looks depressing to me.
firstly i'd like to know from personal experience if you're able to get this medication from a normal doctor?
i would like to go to a psychiatrist but they are really expensive and as a student i cant afford that. my parents aren't the supportive type either and it was a struggle to get my mom to get this doctors appointment i have in a few days time.
these are the symptoms i feel most frequently:
1. probably the reason i decided to seek help is brain fog
. every now and then i lose focus on everything.
2.lack of motivation
3.self conscious (always worried with how i look.)
. this is a big problem. i've always felt inferior around people but lately i've even felt this around my closest friends. friends who i share everything with. my best mates, and thats ruining our friendship. i always feel like i dont belong with them like they secretly dont want me around. i feel like a child around them
6.anxiety around people and strangers
7. feel like i have no future, no point to life etc and that is a massive problem considering im a student who needs to do well for my future
8. increased eating.(HUGE problem because i lost alot of weight which i dont want to gain again)
it really sucks because my depression is increasing my social anxiety. i feel like my mind is wearing away and my sanity is going. the biggest trouble i have is having conversations with people because all i think about during the conversation is how they see me and how much of a loser they think i am and whats ironic is that there is actually this girl who i like who is interested in me(know for a fact) and i know that if something happens between us(romantically) she could really help me fight my depression(give me a hope to fight this) but whenever we try to organize something i find an excuse to skip it because im scared to be around her without her or my friends ther( i keep thinking about how she sees me, what do i say, will i ***** it up etc)
i think most of this stems from my being over weight my whole life. i was always that fat kid you ate cake and played video games etc but when i moved away from home and started university i joined gym and lost 70lbs.
so im not obese anymore(still a little overweight but im extremely tall so it doesnt look too terrible) but i still think of myself as this overweight loser and that stays in my head everytime i interact with ANYONE
sorry that i rambled on but consider this a question with a "get to know me" bit included.
so again my question is will i be able to get medication for my problem from a normal doctor without seeing a therapist?
thanks for any input you people have