Right now I've been really clinically depressed and so far this week have found it very hard to fall asleep at night and end up sleeping at about 3am. I also awake at about 4pm so I have been sleeping like 13+ hours which is hypersomnia.
I am on Cipramil (Celexa in USA) 40mg which is 2 tablets after my GP suggested it as it wasn't stopping depressed symptoms on 30mg. Well considering I've been on this dose for over 3 weeks I am getting even more depressed. Four years ago I was on Effexor-xr for about 1 month or 2 and that was worse than Cipramil in terms of sideaffects.
These are the only 2 drugs I've been on. Cipramil I've taken for about 7 years. I know there is a whole market of SSRI's and Benzo's out there but I'm not comfortable with weaning off one and going on to another and using trial and error.
So, right now I'm at the point where I want to wean off Cipramil and pretty much not go on anti depressants ever. They were used to treat my major depressive disorder and chronic social anxiety disorder but I'm pretty much over trying to fight it and want to just accept it and just live.
The times I've had depressive episodes pre-medication were quite severe and would last for months. I would be so utterly paralysed and so anxious I did not know how to control myself.
I know there is a limitation as to what people can say on here regarding meds but from your experiences do you think I am doing the right thing
? Sure, I do have "major/clinical depression, severe/chronic social anxiety disorder, mild OCPD, avoidant personality disorder and perfectionism" but I'm fed up of trying to mask them with drugs. I just want to live my life.
p.s; Once the effects of the meds have subsided, I am looking at therapy for coping with SA, being assertive, lessening my perfectionism and being happy with who I am.
I'd appreciate any replies. Thanks.