Hey, I hope you're still checking this forum because I relate to almost everything you wrote! I don't want you to think you're abnormal/no one else goes through these things, even though I don't think this is the norm, as in the average person's experience. But I suspect a lot of people with SA and maybe some other issues have a hard time calling people/talking on the phone, reading emails or other messages if they're worried about what they'll say, need caffeine or other supplements to do some things, etc. I have those three issues myself. I sometimes feel better after I do something I'm not comfortable doing and nothing goes wrong, but it never helps me do those things again. I really hate phones, especially ringing ones--that's never going to change.