I don't know about some of you, but on days like today when it's sunny outside, I often feel just as depressed and anxious. On days when it's cloudy, snowing, or raining, I tell myself I have the perfect excuse to stay inside because of the weather. When it's sunny, I feel obligated to go out, breathe the fresh air and live. By not going outside, I feel more of a failure for not taking the iniatiative to put myself in another frame of mind. Anyone else feel like this?
I must say I feel the way you do (except I don't like the rain if I've got to go out-if I can stay in bed it's fantastic!), 'cause I don't have many friends since I was little and seeing other people around not smiling 'cause of the sun and their social life, makes me feel less lonely. I love going around in the winter, 'cause there's less selfishness and people help each others so I can have human contact.
But there's more. Especially in the Spring I feel very very low and I feel physically bothered by the sun (wearing sunglasses is a must, but it doesn't give relief). It bothers me to stay in the sun and in the heat, I stay home in the dark, or if I've to go out, in the shade. I cannot stand the heat, I get anxious, thirsty and sometimes feel like I could pass out.
I wonder, could this be a REAL condition? I'm sick of people laughing at me when I ask it and saying "maybe you're a vampire!" (that would be easier
). That doesn't help, I need, we need to know better.