Suicide...Have you ever??

[Hot Chocolate]

Yes I do. I never thought of seeing myself at an old age.

I can't imagine being so old, ugly and weak. I mean I really don't mind if it's during my youth, being alone and loserish and all but to be this way at an old age? It sucks honestly speaking.

So yes, suicide is always on my mind but i'm deciding which age is the best to go.

[Gemmygem]

Suicide dominated my thoughts last year, I had two overdoses where I ended up in hospital, one which I spent in ICU. I feel much better on new medication, though I still play things out in my head even though I don't plan to go through with them anymore. Suzanna from Girl, Interupted sums up how I feel perfectly;

"See, once it's in your head though, you become this strange, new breed. A life form that loves to fantasize about its own demise…”

[gomenne]

I think about it very often, just the thought of ending all of this is comforting.
I will never do it though, I just think about it.

[Beelz]

Its not like its never crossed my mind... i have never been down enough to actually attempt suicide but i have sat and come up with ways i would do it, tbh i am ashamed of my self but i did come up with my method for ending everything.

Tbh i don't think i could attempt suicide untill my parents pass on because i hate the idea of leaving them all alone to deal with the greif of loosing their son... afterall my family are the only people in this world i truely share anylevel of connection to it don't matter how small it maybe.

Death its self doesn't scare me... afterall if i die tomorrow or in 30years time im still gunna die so i don't see areason to fear the inevitable.

[copper]

Sometimes suicide attempts fail. I would be the one it would be failed and I would get hauled off to a Psyche unit for the rest of my life. I work in the field so I would be the patient from hell. I don't really want to live my life like this.

[M O T N]

Before I got my severe depression treated, I thought about it all the time. I've made elaborate plans and scenarios, but never took action. I don't think about it much now, but when my mood is down, I do. I don't think I'm afraid of death and would be ready for it. I'm a Christian, so actually committing suicide would be a sin to me, so all I could really do is ask and hope for death.

[NatureFellow]

In dark times, I had some dark thoughts.
But I'll be damned if I leave the world like that.

[Nogy]

Tried it before, yes. I won't go into detail since i'm sure its against the rules, but someone found me much sooner than i expected so it was a failure. Was in the hospital for a couple of days and then forced to go to the psych ward. Surprisingly the psych ward was fun. Good times, good times. Lol

[ryobi]

I used to think about it all the time but what helped me strangely enough was surfing.
I've had to fight for my life against rip currents that would have sucked me out to sea.
The moments when I was fighting for my life I realized how much I wanted to live.

[trendyfool]

Yes, I often think about killing myself. When I'm really low I can get so bad that I start weighing the pros and cons of suicide. I will never do it as long as my parents are alive...that would ruin their lives.

But this is only after attempting it a year and a half ago. After I saw what my attempt did to my family and even friends, and knowing how much worse it would have been had I been successful, I will never again do that to the people around me.

[Bluemonster]

I have thought about suicide often and still do but there is something stopping me from trying to commit suicide.

[whatevzers]

I've thought about it, but never into detail. I've never planned it out or anything. I'm actually afraid to die.

[Perkins]

For a short while as a teen I would cut myself. All that made me realize was how hard it was to hide them and how it really did not bring me any relief but create more negativity. I also tried downing my mom's prescription contents once and all it did was send me to the hospital and create more conflict.

Ever since I was 7 I've had suicidal thoughts and it doesn't go away. The only difference is now that I am older but the thoughts are still as fresh in my mind as they were when they first came all those years ago. I think about it every day but the only thing that stops me is hope. That I may miss out on something if I go. That things may look up if I just keep on fighting. But here I am still all these years later and I am still as depressed as I was then. The hope is dwindling.

[whatevzers]

Originally Posted by Perkins

For a short while as a teen I would cut myself. All that made me realize was how hard it was to hide them and how it really did not bring me any relief but create more negativity. I also tried downing my mom's prescription contents once and all it did was send me to the hospital and create more conflict.

Ever since I was 7 I've had suicidal thoughts and it doesn't go away. The only difference is now that I am older but the thoughts are still as fresh in my mind as they were when they first came all those years ago. I think about it every day but the only thing that stops me is hope. That I may miss out on something if I go. That things may look up if I just keep on fighting. But here I am still all these years later and I am still as depressed as I was then. The hope is dwindling.

Couldn't have described it better myself.

[Knowbody]

Originally Posted by TheOutsider

That is exactly what I have told myself too. I just don't see my life past 27.

i've always told ppl that i'd most likely off myself before 30.

5 years left

[Help please]

I can't say it hasn't crossed my mind a few times, but I know deep down I'd never.

[tohellandback]

I've been suicidal for the better part of 6 years. It's a prevalent thought that comes up all the time. Not sure how far I want to go

[meganmila]

I thought this thread would be closed.

But to answer the question yes I have. I almost came close to it. Never attempted anything just thought about it.

[RUFB2327]

I've never tried to kill myself, but I think about it many times daily. I am not enjoying life at all right now and because there is absolutely no reason or point any of us are here on earth, I just think what's the point in trying to fight through your problems?

The only reason I won't kill myself is because of my mom. I know for a fact that she would kill herself if anything ever happened to me, which is very frustrating because it is her fault that I am even alive. I constantly think that I never asked to be born, so why should I have to be worry about being considered "selfish" for wanting to end what I never wanted in the first place?

[Col]

I've thought of killing myself since middle school. 2 years ago I tried it (via hanging). I still think about it when I'm really really really depressed (which tends to be a week before my period).
I think the reason why I tried it 2 years ago was because my boyfriend broke up with me & I had no one else to lean on. I don't know what would happen if he broke up with me again.. I'm sure that puts some ****ty pressure on him. That's why I'm trying to make friends so even if he did break up with me, I wouldn't just collapse. Still can't make friends though even when I try /sigh.