Sometimes I just feel empty, like I'm nothing, no-one
You know those days when you just can't get out of bed at all and you stay in it 'till 3pm and then you get up but don't eat, talk to someone or do anything at all and the entire day was just a waste because all you really did was sit on the couch and stare into the distance with a cigarette and a beer like a zombie? Those days that you don't feel happy and you don't feel particularly unhappy, you just feel nothing, like nothing at all matters, that the outside world is almost non-existent and you're not connected to anything or anyone? And then you also stay up the entire night, going on doing nothing. And it's like you're the most small unimportant uncaring meaningless pointless worthloss low-life son of a ***** on the planet. Well, those days, they suck.
Sometimes it's great to be numb. Feeling nothing feels great sometimes. I know that's kind of contradicting but you get it. It's just that those days seem to be happening more and more lately. I can't get myself to do anything. Too tired. Too uninterested. The world is boring, scary, evil and without meaning. Why the hell stay in this place. Does this sound familiar to anyone of you? Anyway just needed to get this out of my system.