Social anxiety around the opposite sex. How to accept being a lonesome ugly weirdo.
I know most people can be nervous around members of the opposite sex, but i get extreme anxiety / panic attacks, when having to interact with most girls. This is just in ordinary situations, like the nurses when i was in hospital, and cashiers in shops etc. I seem to treat these mundane situations as if they are a first date or something (i know, i'm a creepy weirdo) and get super anxious.
The logical part of my brain realises i'm an ugly loser, yet rather than just accepting this, another part of my brain tells me to be super nervous and self concious around most girls. It's like subconciously i think i need to make a good impression, as there's a chance she may like me. However, i am a proper ugly weirdo who no girl would ever go near in a million years (i'm afraid this really is no exaggeration - i really am that ugly and creepy). But i just can't make my subconcious brain accept this.
This leads to incredibly awkward interactions, as most girls are completely freaked out by me. I think it's the combination of the weird ugliness, coupled with the extreme shyness and anxiety.
I think if i could truly accept i'm an extremely ugly weirdo with social anxiety, who will always be alone, i would be a lot happier, and less anxious. The worst part of it all is seeing how uncomfortable and freaked out the girls are during these awkward interactions.
Does anyone else find their social anxiety is much worse with the opposite sex, and have you found a way of getting over it?