Saying stupid things.
Whenever I get into a conversation with others, I naturally get performance anxiety (no matter how hard I try not to) and as a result, some very stupid things come out of my mouth. Anxiety seems to throw sort of a wrench into my brain to screw things up when I speak.
Instead of saying stuff I really want to say, I end up saying crap just to please the other person.
Or, my over-analyzing brain over-thinks things to the point where I sometimes put a cap on my thinking. Too many thoughts about how I am perceived rather than about how I truly feel.
If I could change one thing about myself it would be the ability to say what I think without that dreaded weight of thinking "they might think I'm stupid, odd, etc!!!!!" I just want to be able to be myself without this horrible burden beating me down.
I know this is stuff that's probably been said, but I just needed to write it down.
"If a person continues to see only giants, it means he is still looking at the world through the eyes of a child." (This is how I see myself at times)