12-18-2006, 11:19 PM
Status: Calm like a bomb
Join Date: Feb 2004
Location: Montreal, Quebec
With a name like Rydia, you must be a final Fantasy Fan?
I can relate to your post so much. I'm agoraphobic myself. My situation is very similar to yours. I go out about once a week and thats mostly if i have to. I try to go for walks everyday, but it doesn't always work out well. Last year i was homebound for months...only going out to get food and visit my familly. Now i'm a little better. I can go out and do more things(for longer periods of time) which feels good.
Like you, i have no friend or a girlfriend. I do have a couple of good online friends and they help a lot, but i get way too lonely sometimes
I don't cope very well with it, though. I get badly depressed...and i'm very moody from day to day.
I used to drink and do drugs to cope, but i don't take that option anymore.
Will it get better? I have no idea, but i'm trying to fight it, at least
And it gets better and better...slowly, but i'll take that over a stop anytime
Well, I don't know, but I've been told
You never slow down, you never grow old
I'm tired of screwin' up, tired of going down
tired of myself, tired of this town