Social Anxiety Support

Daveee · 11-02-2009, 11:47 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/2/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

Nothing. I felt lazy today.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I worked a little on my small business computer network. I also reviewed some of the electrical engineering materials.

Daveee · 11-03-2009, 11:49 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/2/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to a target today and did some exposures. I saw a guy buying left over Halloween candy and I asked him how much does it cost. The guy did not speak english and responded to me in spanish. I didn't really know how to respond

. It was kinda awkward

.

At target, I also said hi to 2 people walking by.

After target, I went to walmart again. I saw an employee stocking up games and I asked her how much new games usually cost. She answered and that was it. I walked to another section and saw another girl stocking games. I asked her if these are old games. She answered and that was it.

I'm becoming an expert at knowing where things are at walmart since I spend so much time there

.

I have lowered my expection when doing exposures. Before I always expect myself to do a certain amount of approaches per day but that creates too much stress. The stress is bad for me because it causes me to dredge (sp?) doing the exposures next day. Thus I lowered my expectation. Now I only expect myself to do "my best." If I get 1 exposure, then it's ok.

I believe that the beating my fear is an edurance race. If I create too much stress and pressure for myself, I will just quit and not do anymore exposures. It's expected because who wants to be pressured and stressed out? What I'm doing is just pacing myself. I'm gonna pace myself so that I can consistently do the exposures.

Today I also signed up for an entrepreneur meetup using meetup.com. The meetup will be tomorrow. One of my goals for this meetup is to practice being myself.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I didn't look for a job today. I reviewed some the electrical engineering material.

Daveee · 11-04-2009, 11:35 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/3/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to an entrepreneur meetup this morning. When I got there, there was only me and the organizer. About 4 other people flaked

. Anyway, the organizer was really receptive to me and he seemed to have a genuine interest in getting to know me. We talked our business goals and shared ideas on starting and running a business. Because he was receptive of me, I felt comfortable. It was a really good experience and I will chalk this experience down as an exposure because it gives me experience with people.I had night class today. At the break, I went outside and saw a guy that I talked to briefly last week. I asked him about his current jobs. We talked for about a minute or two and then other people from the class joined the conversation. They changed the topic and I lost interest in talking. I went back into class

.

Currently I feel that exposures are pretty tedious. It makes me anxious and that zaps my energy. Even so, I have to keep doing them because I have been making really good progress. I'm going to register for a public speaking to further improve myself.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I went to my night class. The class is about computer networking and it will definitely help me make more money.

In the morning I went to an entrepreneur meetup and I learned some investing strategies from the organizer.

Heisel · 11-05-2009, 05:43 AM

Hey man, I just want to say I have really enjoyed your blog, I check it out each day to see how things are going for you. Keep up the good work!

Daveee · 11-06-2009, 12:33 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Heisel

Hey man, I just want to say I have really enjoyed your blog, I check it out each day to see how things are going for you. Keep up the good work!

Thanks. Knowing that somebody reads my blog motivates to write it.

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/4/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

It's not directly related to exposures or SA but I have got to wake up earlier. I have been waking up at 10am-12pm and I feel like I'm wasting a lot of valuable time. I'm going to try to wake up at 8 am, eat, shower and then be out by 9:30am to do exposures.

I did one exposure today. While in the parking lot, I saw a guy passing out fliers. I approached him and asked him what he was passing out. The fliers were for a show in LA.

Talking to people who I don't know in public is pretty hard but I will keep on trying though. I think if I just keep on trying then I will be get over my fear. On average, I get only 1-3 exposures per day. Hopefully in the near future I can increase the # of exposures per day.

2. Move out of my parents' home and be an independent man.

Looked for a job on monster. Still no calls.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I worked on my business today. Specifically, I was on my linux file server. Linux is hard

.

Daveee · 11-07-2009, 12:53 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/6/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to my MMA club today. I didn't make an afford to talk to anybody new because I was too busy practicing.After the MMA club, I went to the engineering club. I went there and I also a member waiting for the club president to arrive. I talked to him for a while and it was a pleasant conversation. I waited for about 30 min and the club president still didn't come so I left. I will not attend this club in the future.I stopped by fry's. At the store, I saw a guy buying an IPOD speaker and I asked him about. He told me about it and that was it. Next I saw a guy check out and computer and I asked him what's so special about. Once again, the person responded and that was it. I walked around some more and I saw a family looking at LED TVs. I commented on how good the picture looks. They responded with a short "yeah."

I have a meetup scheduled with a social group tomorrow. We will meetup lunch. This meetup group is just one of those social group. We just get together and talk about nothing

. Oh well I will still attend to practice my people skills.

Daveee · 11-08-2009, 12:09 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/7/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to a meetup today. The meetup group had 3 guys (me included) and 3 girls. We met up at a restaurant and had lunch. At the meetup, I only know the organizer and the other 4 people are new to me. During the meetup, I was pretty comfortable compared to a year ago. Because I was comfortable, I was able to enjoy my lunch, be funny and spontaneous. I definitely notice how differently I acted at today's meetup when compared to a year ago. If it was a year ago, thoughts of whether or not people like me would flood my mind. As a result, I would constantly try act in a way that I thought would win people's approval of me. This would of resulted in anxiety because I'm trying put on a persona and hide my real self. I'm not 100% cured but I've made good progress.

After the meetup, I stopped by a bookstore. While browsing the magazine stand, an old guy talked to me. I responded but I didn't want to continue the conversation because I just didn't know what to say about the subject. After checking out the magz stand, I went over to the computer books section. I saw a guy reading a computer book and I asked him whether or not the book he was reading is good. He gave me his opinions of the inquired book and recommended other books to me.

At night, I went out to dinner with two close friends. I joked around with the waitress and made her laugh. I'm chalking it down as a "flirting exposure

"

If I achieved all of my goals, I don't think I will be that much happier. True and lasting happiness is something that depends on me. If I'm not happy now, I don't think I will be significantly happier when I achieved all my goals. I truly believe the lasting happiness can only come from within. I watched this youtube video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-4flnuxNV4
and I agree with guy on happiness. If you're a happy person, you will be happy in almost all situations. On the other hand, if you're a sad person, you will be sad no matter what you've achieved.

Daveee · 11-09-2009, 12:05 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/8/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to another meetup today. This time it was a meetup for people with SA and we went out to eat lunch. I knew most people in the group but it was still good to hang out and get to know them better. It was a good meetup because it gave me a chance to gain experience with people. Most importantly, there were some girls in the group and I got a chance to meet and interact with them.

After the meetup, I went to a relative's house for dinner. I didn't say much at the dinner because I was never close to them. While I didn't say much, I was comfortable with myself. I didn't have the needs join in a conversation because I didn't want my relative to supposedly disapprove of me. I just sat there without a care in the world.I don't hate my relative but I do feel neutral about them.That's my day! Tomorrow I will apply, rise and repeat!

Daveee · 11-10-2009, 08:47 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/10/09

I have nothing to write about today. I was not feeling motivated so I didn't do anything except read personal development articles on "desires" and how to control them.

Daveee · 11-12-2009, 12:59 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/11/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

Another lazy day

. I didn't even go outside today. I just stayed in and read personal development articles on the internet. It's not a total loss of day. I did gain some new insight on self improvement and it will help me on overcoming my fear.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I spent some time studying the materials on cisco networking. Today is veteran's day so I have no night class.

Daveee · 11-15-2009, 12:15 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/13/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to the MMA club at my local college today (as usual). Currently I'm pretty comfortable at the club. There were times when I need to pair up with somebody and I had no problem just walking around asking people if they want to be my partner. Compared to last year, I was anxious when looking for a partner because I was afraid that they will say no. Anyway, I talked to several new people and talked to the club secretary who was a girl. Beside the sore neck from the head chokes and sore feet from the foot lock, I felt pretty good

.

After MMA club, I stopped by the engineering club. I got to know some of the officers and the club adviser. I felt welcomed

.

Daveee · 11-15-2009, 12:41 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/14/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I woke up early to go to the engineering club at my college. I went to the meeting because I wanted to help them with a project and to get more experience with interacting with people. Specifically, I wanted to get more experience interacting with people with authority. There was three old guys, one student and me. Two of the old guys were professors at the college. I tend to put authoritative people on a pedestal but now I realized that they're not really that special. They make mistakes just like me.

2. Move out of my parents' home and be an independent man.

Spent about 1.5 hr online looking for a job. Still no calls. Looks like it's going to be a while

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I spent about 3 hours working on my small business server. I just bought a new server from dell and I spent 3 hours testing and configuring it. I have being working on this small business network/server project for about 3 months now and have spent about $1500. I hope to sell my small business network/server design to small businesses when I'm done with R&D.One problem that I will face is not being able to approach people and pitch my product to them. Approaching people to pitch my product to them makes me anxious. The good news is that the exposures that I have been doing almost everyday is helping to lessen the fear of approaching people.

. I will continue to do the exposure and push myself daily

.

Daveee · 11-15-2009, 11:19 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/15/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

My parent celebrated an occasion today so I had to stay home and help them. There were a lot of people at my house so I was a little bit nervous but it wasn't too bad.

Ever wonder how you can accept yourself but still want to improve yourself? Self improvement and self acceptance seem like a contradiction. This article explains how to get around this problem.
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/200...rsonal-growth/

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I worked on my small biz network. I finally got the new DELL T110 file server setup and it is now in testing.

Not an exciting day but what can you do

. Tomorrow is another day

Daveee · 11-16-2009, 11:49 PM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/16/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I went to walmart to do the exposures. I saw a guy trying to play with the demo xbox 360 and I asked him if it's working. He didn't really say anything back to me

.

I went to the magazine stand and an old lady talked to me. I talked to her briefly and left.

Progress on overcoming my fear of rejection is pretty slow. It's slow that I can't tell if I'm making any progress at

. Like I said in past posts, it takes time to see progress so I'm gonna hang in there and continue the exposure.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I continued to R&D my small biz network. I ran into a lot of technical difficulties at the beginning but now it's all good.

I'm not done yet but i'm getting there. I can't wait to finish R&D so that I can go out to companies and sell my design

.

I also did some research on how to invest money. I already have some in the stock market and it's currently doing really good. I still have some money left over and I think I want to start/buy an online forum or a vending business. I hope I'm not doing too many things at once.

Heisel · 11-17-2009, 06:52 AM

Keep it up, I'm impressed with your dilegence. You are on your way. Love the blog!

Daveee · 11-17-2009, 02:06 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Heisel

Keep it up, I'm impressed with your dilegence. You are on your way. Love the blog!

Did you accidentally clicked on my blog?

Daveee · 11-18-2009, 12:19 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/17/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I didn't go to the stores today but instead I went to the gym. While working on my arm, I saw a guy wearing a t-shirt that advertised an MMA gym. I thought it was a perfect situation to chip away at my fear. I got up from my workout machine and approached him. I asked him if he's a member of the gym and whether or not it's a good gym. We talked for about a minute. At the end of the conversation, he asked for my name and we shook hand. I was nervous and I forgot to ask for his name when he asked for mine. OOPS

.
My parent had a party earlier this month and tried to hook me up with one of her friend's daughter. My mom introduced her to me but she did it in a weird way and it made the intro really awkward. My avoidance personality kicked into full gear and I didn't talk to her. Today my mom gave an email that she got from the girl and told me to email her. I think I will email

.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I did some research on how to invest money. I got a book on investing and read it for about an hour in the morning. The key to making good money is by investing it. Invested money works for you even when you sleep. You don't get paid for sleeping when working for a company

In order to land a job, what I'm trying to do is create a portfolio of engineering projects. Currently I'm developing an electronic guitar tuner. This involves electronic engineering and I'm having a tough time developing it. No worries though because I learned to be persistent and I will continue to work on it.

Heisel · 11-18-2009, 12:26 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Daveee

Did you accidentally clicked on my blog?

Don't sell yourself short, you are being proactive and doing what needs to be done. Makes for entertaining reading, interested to see how it all turns out.

Daveee · 11-19-2009, 01:55 AM

What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below?
11/18/09

1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship.

I emailed the girl that my mom tried to hook me up with. We'll see what happens next

.

I went to night class today. At the break, I tried to talk to a guy that I talked to a couple of times in the past. The thing that makes it hard for me to talk to him is that I feel like the ice between me and him has not been broken. Thus I chalked this down as an exposure.

I also started a conversation with another guy that I talked to briefly before. He seems to enjoy my company and we ended up doing a lab assignment together.

At the end of the lab, I saw two guys doing some thing on their computer. I haven't talked to both guys before so I thought it would be good time to do so. So I approached them and asked them what they're doing. They did not respond. I stuck around and made some jokes but once again they didn't acknowledge me. I think they were just too occupied. I did feel a bit insulted & rejected but this is the situation that I to expose myself to. If I keep on fearing rejection, then I will not make any attempts to make friends (avoidance). When you avoid, you have 0% chance of making a friend.

Do you wonder why I make an effort to talk to guys when my goal is to be in a relationship with a woman? Well what I'm trying to do is "working my way up." Since I fear talking woman, what I'm trying to do is slowly overcoming the fear by first talking to guys. Eventually I will be at a level where I can make attempts at approaching and meeting women.

I'm not gay

. hehe.

3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle.

I reviewed some of the electronic engineering materials.

My small biz network is currently being tested. It has been running for two days straight and is still going strong. Specifically, I'm currently testing the fileserver and the backup system.

strawberryjulius · 11-19-2009, 02:48 AM

i really enjoy reading this.

11-03-2009, 11:49 PM	#42 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/2/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to a target today and did some exposures. I saw a guy buying left over Halloween candy and I asked him how much does it cost. The guy did not speak english and responded to me in spanish. I didn't really know how to respond. It was kinda awkward . At target, I also said hi to 2 people walking by. After target, I went to walmart again. I saw an employee stocking up games and I asked her how much new games usually cost. She answered and that was it. I walked to another section and saw another girl stocking games. I asked her if these are old games. She answered and that was it. I'm becoming an expert at knowing where things are at walmart since I spend so much time there . I have lowered my expection when doing exposures. Before I always expect myself to do a certain amount of approaches per day but that creates too much stress. The stress is bad for me because it causes me to dredge (sp?) doing the exposures next day. Thus I lowered my expectation. Now I only expect myself to do "my best." If I get 1 exposure, then it's ok. I believe that the beating my fear is an edurance race. If I create too much stress and pressure for myself, I will just quit and not do anymore exposures. It's expected because who wants to be pressured and stressed out? What I'm doing is just pacing myself. I'm gonna pace myself so that I can consistently do the exposures. Today I also signed up for an entrepreneur meetup using meetup.com. The meetup will be tomorrow. One of my goals for this meetup is to practice being myself. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I didn't look for a job today. I reviewed some the electrical engineering material.

11-04-2009, 11:35 PM	#43 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/3/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to an entrepreneur meetup this morning. When I got there, there was only me and the organizer. About 4 other people flaked. Anyway, the organizer was really receptive to me and he seemed to have a genuine interest in getting to know me. We talked our business goals and shared ideas on starting and running a business. Because he was receptive of me, I felt comfortable. It was a really good experience and I will chalk this experience down as an exposure because it gives me experience with people.I had night class today. At the break, I went outside and saw a guy that I talked to briefly last week. I asked him about his current jobs. We talked for about a minute or two and then other people from the class joined the conversation. They changed the topic and I lost interest in talking. I went back into class . Currently I feel that exposures are pretty tedious. It makes me anxious and that zaps my energy. Even so, I have to keep doing them because I have been making really good progress. I'm going to register for a public speaking to further improve myself. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I went to my night class. The class is about computer networking and it will definitely help me make more money. In the morning I went to an entrepreneur meetup and I learned some investing strategies from the organizer.

11-07-2009, 12:53 AM	#46 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/6/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to my MMA club today. I didn't make an afford to talk to anybody new because I was too busy practicing.After the MMA club, I went to the engineering club. I went there and I also a member waiting for the club president to arrive. I talked to him for a while and it was a pleasant conversation. I waited for about 30 min and the club president still didn't come so I left. I will not attend this club in the future.I stopped by fry's. At the store, I saw a guy buying an IPOD speaker and I asked him about. He told me about it and that was it. Next I saw a guy check out and computer and I asked him what's so special about. Once again, the person responded and that was it. I walked around some more and I saw a family looking at LED TVs. I commented on how good the picture looks. They responded with a short "yeah." I have a meetup scheduled with a social group tomorrow. We will meetup lunch. This meetup group is just one of those social group. We just get together and talk about nothing. Oh well I will still attend to practice my people skills.

11-08-2009, 12:09 AM	#47 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/7/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to a meetup today. The meetup group had 3 guys (me included) and 3 girls. We met up at a restaurant and had lunch. At the meetup, I only know the organizer and the other 4 people are new to me. During the meetup, I was pretty comfortable compared to a year ago. Because I was comfortable, I was able to enjoy my lunch, be funny and spontaneous. I definitely notice how differently I acted at today's meetup when compared to a year ago. If it was a year ago, thoughts of whether or not people like me would flood my mind. As a result, I would constantly try act in a way that I thought would win people's approval of me. This would of resulted in anxiety because I'm trying put on a persona and hide my real self. I'm not 100% cured but I've made good progress. After the meetup, I stopped by a bookstore. While browsing the magazine stand, an old guy talked to me. I responded but I didn't want to continue the conversation because I just didn't know what to say about the subject. After checking out the magz stand, I went over to the computer books section. I saw a guy reading a computer book and I asked him whether or not the book he was reading is good. He gave me his opinions of the inquired book and recommended other books to me. At night, I went out to dinner with two close friends. I joked around with the waitress and made her laugh. I'm chalking it down as a "flirting exposure" If I achieved all of my goals, I don't think I will be that much happier. True and lasting happiness is something that depends on me. If I'm not happy now, I don't think I will be significantly happier when I achieved all my goals. I truly believe the lasting happiness can only come from within. I watched this youtube video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-4flnuxNV4 and I agree with guy on happiness. If you're a happy person, you will be happy in almost all situations. On the other hand, if you're a sad person, you will be sad no matter what you've achieved.

11-15-2009, 12:41 AM	#52 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/14/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I woke up early to go to the engineering club at my college. I went to the meeting because I wanted to help them with a project and to get more experience with interacting with people. Specifically, I wanted to get more experience interacting with people with authority. There was three old guys, one student and me. Two of the old guys were professors at the college. I tend to put authoritative people on a pedestal but now I realized that they're not really that special. They make mistakes just like me. 2. Move out of my parents' home and be an independent man. Spent about 1.5 hr online looking for a job. Still no calls. Looks like it's going to be a while 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I spent about 3 hours working on my small business server. I just bought a new server from dell and I spent 3 hours testing and configuring it. I have being working on this small business network/server project for about 3 months now and have spent about $1500. I hope to sell my small business network/server design to small businesses when I'm done with R&D.One problem that I will face is not being able to approach people and pitch my product to them. Approaching people to pitch my product to them makes me anxious. The good news is that the exposures that I have been doing almost everyday is helping to lessen the fear of approaching people. . I will continue to do the exposure and push myself daily.

11-02-2009, 11:47 PM	#41 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/2/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. Nothing. I felt lazy today. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I worked a little on my small business computer network. I also reviewed some of the electrical engineering materials.

11-05-2009, 05:43 AM	#44 (permalink)
Heisel Status: SAS Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 20	Hey man, I just want to say I have really enjoyed your blog, I check it out each day to see how things are going for you. Keep up the good work!

11-09-2009, 12:05 AM	#48 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/8/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to another meetup today. This time it was a meetup for people with SA and we went out to eat lunch. I knew most people in the group but it was still good to hang out and get to know them better. It was a good meetup because it gave me a chance to gain experience with people. Most importantly, there were some girls in the group and I got a chance to meet and interact with them. After the meetup, I went to a relative's house for dinner. I didn't say much at the dinner because I was never close to them. While I didn't say much, I was comfortable with myself. I didn't have the needs join in a conversation because I didn't want my relative to supposedly disapprove of me. I just sat there without a care in the world.I don't hate my relative but I do feel neutral about them.That's my day! Tomorrow I will apply, rise and repeat!

11-10-2009, 08:47 PM	#49 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/10/09 I have nothing to write about today. I was not feeling motivated so I didn't do anything except read personal development articles on "desires" and how to control them.

11-12-2009, 12:59 AM	#50 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/11/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. Another lazy day . I didn't even go outside today. I just stayed in and read personal development articles on the internet. It's not a total loss of day. I did gain some new insight on self improvement and it will help me on overcoming my fear. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I spent some time studying the materials on cisco networking. Today is veteran's day so I have no night class.

11-15-2009, 12:15 AM	#51 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/13/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to the MMA club at my local college today (as usual). Currently I'm pretty comfortable at the club. There were times when I need to pair up with somebody and I had no problem just walking around asking people if they want to be my partner. Compared to last year, I was anxious when looking for a partner because I was afraid that they will say no. Anyway, I talked to several new people and talked to the club secretary who was a girl. Beside the sore neck from the head chokes and sore feet from the foot lock, I felt pretty good . After MMA club, I stopped by the engineering club. I got to know some of the officers and the club adviser. I felt welcomed .

11-15-2009, 11:19 PM	#53 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/15/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. My parent celebrated an occasion today so I had to stay home and help them. There were a lot of people at my house so I was a little bit nervous but it wasn't too bad. Ever wonder how you can accept yourself but still want to improve yourself? Self improvement and self acceptance seem like a contradiction. This article explains how to get around this problem. http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/200...rsonal-growth/ 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I worked on my small biz network. I finally got the new DELL T110 file server setup and it is now in testing. Not an exciting day but what can you do. Tomorrow is another day

11-16-2009, 11:49 PM	#54 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/16/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I went to walmart to do the exposures. I saw a guy trying to play with the demo xbox 360 and I asked him if it's working. He didn't really say anything back to me . I went to the magazine stand and an old lady talked to me. I talked to her briefly and left. Progress on overcoming my fear of rejection is pretty slow. It's slow that I can't tell if I'm making any progress at . Like I said in past posts, it takes time to see progress so I'm gonna hang in there and continue the exposure. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I continued to R&D my small biz network. I ran into a lot of technical difficulties at the beginning but now it's all good. I'm not done yet but i'm getting there. I can't wait to finish R&D so that I can go out to companies and sell my design . I also did some research on how to invest money. I already have some in the stock market and it's currently doing really good. I still have some money left over and I think I want to start/buy an online forum or a vending business. I hope I'm not doing too many things at once.

11-17-2009, 06:52 AM	#55 (permalink)
Heisel Status: SAS Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 20	Keep it up, I'm impressed with your dilegence. You are on your way. Love the blog!

11-18-2009, 12:19 AM	#57 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/17/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I didn't go to the stores today but instead I went to the gym. While working on my arm, I saw a guy wearing a t-shirt that advertised an MMA gym. I thought it was a perfect situation to chip away at my fear. I got up from my workout machine and approached him. I asked him if he's a member of the gym and whether or not it's a good gym. We talked for about a minute. At the end of the conversation, he asked for my name and we shook hand. I was nervous and I forgot to ask for his name when he asked for mine. OOPS . My parent had a party earlier this month and tried to hook me up with one of her friend's daughter. My mom introduced her to me but she did it in a weird way and it made the intro really awkward. My avoidance personality kicked into full gear and I didn't talk to her. Today my mom gave an email that she got from the girl and told me to email her. I think I will email. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I did some research on how to invest money. I got a book on investing and read it for about an hour in the morning. The key to making good money is by investing it. Invested money works for you even when you sleep. You don't get paid for sleeping when working for a company In order to land a job, what I'm trying to do is create a portfolio of engineering projects. Currently I'm developing an electronic guitar tuner. This involves electronic engineering and I'm having a tough time developing it. No worries though because I learned to be persistent and I will continue to work on it.

11-19-2009, 02:48 AM	#60 (permalink)
strawberryjulius Status: ^_^ Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Australia Gender: Female Age: 18 Posts: 1,568	i really enjoy reading this. __________________ Last.fm▪Anime "And if you've been let down, it might not be the last time. Cheer up, it will hurt much less tomorrow. We're all tired of **ing up and that's not just being sorry. It means brush the dirt off, get up and try again." NaNoWriMo Word Count: 470/50,000**

11-19-2009, 01:55 AM	#59 (permalink)
Daveee Status: SAS Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 52	What did I do today that will help me achieve the goals below? 11/18/09 1. Get over my fear of women so that I can get a girlfriend and be in an intimate relationship. I emailed the girl that my mom tried to hook me up with. We'll see what happens next. I went to night class today. At the break, I tried to talk to a guy that I talked to a couple of times in the past. The thing that makes it hard for me to talk to him is that I feel like the ice between me and him has not been broken. Thus I chalked this down as an exposure. I also started a conversation with another guy that I talked to briefly before. He seems to enjoy my company and we ended up doing a lab assignment together. At the end of the lab, I saw two guys doing some thing on their computer. I haven't talked to both guys before so I thought it would be good time to do so. So I approached them and asked them what they're doing. They did not respond. I stuck around and made some jokes but once again they didn't acknowledge me. I think they were just too occupied. I did feel a bit insulted & rejected but this is the situation that I to expose myself to. If I keep on fearing rejection, then I will not make any attempts to make friends (avoidance). When you avoid, you have 0% chance of making a friend. Do you wonder why I make an effort to talk to guys when my goal is to be in a relationship with a woman? Well what I'm trying to do is "working my way up." Since I fear talking woman, what I'm trying to do is slowly overcoming the fear by first talking to guys. Eventually I will be at a level where I can make attempts at approaching and meeting women. I'm not gay. hehe. 3. Make good money so that I can have a comfortable lifestyle. I reviewed some of the electronic engineering materials. My small biz network is currently being tested. It has been running for two days straight and is still going strong. Specifically, I'm currently testing the fileserver and the backup system.