I am 23 yrs old and have been dealing with a social anxiety/general anxiety since I was 15. I have been to therapy and my mother always disagreed with everything the therapist said. It was almost more stressful just trying to go to therapy.
Anways I think I have been doing well. I have not been able to hold any job except one BUT I learned that some jobs just arent for some people. Everybody has things they are good at and things that they just can not do. I learned that I like routine and working with the same group of people as much as possible, SO I decided to take a CNA class. I figure I'll work nights when there won't be so many visitors and over time I will work on my SAD.
I have to get through the class first which I am very nervous about!
Well my mother just happens to know this 19 y/o guy who is also taking the class. Not only does this hyper and attentnion seeking guy annoy me but he use to be a known drug dealer. Well my mother volunteered me to give him a ride to and from school, after I already said that neither me or my fiance is comfortable with it. This is making my anxiety sky rocket and its also making me angry because it feels like she wants me to fail.
This class is SOOO important for me. It is a huge step that I am really looking forward to, and I cannot miss any days because of anxiety. My fiance who has been helping me with everything for the past 3 years and really showing me how to finally live says it almost seems like my mom wants me to fail so that I can "hang out with her" all the time. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Oh and I have to say that this guy is completely obnoxious, extremely loud, and if I am near him its going to draw attention to me = major social anxiety. He's pretty much the clown at the circus that I would avoid!