(Warning: am feeling quite depressed right now so sorry if this comes across overly negative/senseless/rambly)
Ever get the feeling theres these unwritten rules in life you don't pick up on? I've realised I find myself in these situations all the time...I just don't know what people's intentions are, how to react, how to interpret things etc.. Like with my counsellor. There's long pauses, and I just think: "What the f*** does he want me to say now?
Most of my humor comes from random/surreal observations about things. I know I can be pretty funny. Which is fine, but in general conversations, I can't get that basic human connection with people. People think I'm being fake, which I am really. I think people act differently with me than others cause they know I'm different somehow. I feel like the A.I. boy sometimes.
I don't think
I have Asperger's (god I hate that word), I still 'get' comedy, I usually know what people will find funny, etc., plus most of the symptoms don't describe me. But it worries me. If I have it, that changes everything. I may as well not bother trying to get over SA, cause it's not going to get any better, is it? I'm 19, I don't want to suffer this my whole life
What about this post? Am I writing like a robot? cause I feel like I am. Please let me know/. I don't even think I've expressed myself properly here. Grrrrrrrrrrrr................................