around my friends, I try to be normal, fun guy. but every once in a while I drop the ball and I show a little of what a sniveling little boy I am. tonight was such a night. we were out at a restaurant when some dancer came in to entertain. i was content just watching her, but then she pulled me to the floor. i just couldn't do it, and i had to go back to my seat. i never asked her to dance. why was she pulling me onto the dance floor? she had no right. she could just ask, and i could have said no. but she had to start pulling my arm without asking. everyone else dance though. she was like, "good job everyone, though some were reluctant, WE WON'T MENTION WHO". goddamn bi.tch, i never asked for this. she ruined my night. now i'll probably be avoidant for the next few days, and I'll feel incredibly alone. sorry for the rant, but in short, yes, I do feel incredibly alone even with friends.