Extreme Paranoia, irrational?

[TripleA]

Hey guys, new to this site!

Well I have a little bit of a problem, and it involves alcohol and drugs. Let me start by saying I never noticed I had SA until after my use of alcohol and drugs. I always known I have been shy, just not enough to make it a disorder.

So I was wondering if it is normal to be almost delusional after HEAVY use of alcohol and marijuana. I am constantly paranoid, not only in public but on the internet. If I go on a site like urbandictionary.com I think stuff is related to me and everything is a joke about me.

So I have undiagnosed SA. But has anyone experienced these affects like me.
ex. I think I said embarrassing stuff at a party whilst completely wasted.

Am I just being paranoid, or is this completely possible for people to hate me this much?
Thanks for reading if you did, I appreciate it much.

[slaughter in the vatican]

Well, drugs (esp. psychedelic drugs like marijuana) can cause extreme paranoia. I never wanted to believe that, but it's true. I think it's less of a problem for "normal people", but if you have slight paranoia and social phobia to begin with, it can really get out of control.

My doctor told me - and this was when I was smoking really strong pot all day from the time I woke up until I went to sleep at night - that I had crossed over into psychosis. She said that even though I wasn't seeing things or hearing voices, I was psychotic because I thought everybody was looking at me, watching me and judging me. I also felt like people could almost read my thoughts, like the neighbors always knew what I was doing.

Same thing with the internet. I thought that I was never anonymous, that somehow the people in the chat room/forum whatever, knew my identity. I was placed on an antispsychotic - Seroquel, and it really helped a lot.

Also, it was a long, difficult process, but I'm finally off of pot. I'd say I was addicted pretty hardcore but now I don't drink or use any drugs (well, had one relapse a few weeks ago and smoked some weed but that's it). Like an idiot, I got off of my antispyschotic and starting feeling really bad. Severe depression and anxiety. Now I'm back on it and starting to get better again.

I hate to break the news to you about the psychosis and all, but it sounds like you may have it. Drugs can do that. But I could be wrong. Talk to a doctor about it. And best of luck. I used accupuncture for cravings for weed, btw. Good luck to you.

[TripleA]

Originally Posted by slaughter in the vatican

Well, drugs (esp. psychedelic drugs like marijuana) can cause extreme paranoia. I never wanted to believe that, but it's true. I think it's less of a problem for "normal people", but if you have slight paranoia and social phobia to begin with, it can really get out of control.

My doctor told me - and this was when I was smoking really strong pot all day from the time I woke up until I went to sleep at night - that I had crossed over into psychosis. She said that even though I wasn't seeing things or hearing voices, I was psychotic because I thought everybody was looking at me, watching me and judging me. I also felt like people could almost read my thoughts, like the neighbors always knew what I was doing.

Same thing with the internet. I thought that I was never anonymous, that somehow the people in the chat room/forum whatever, knew my identity. I was placed on an antispsychotic - Seroquel, and it really helped a lot.

Also, it was a long, difficult process, but I'm finally off of pot. I'd say I was addicted pretty hardcore but now I don't drink or use any drugs (well, had one relapse a few weeks ago and smoked some weed but that's it). Like an idiot, I got off of my antispyschotic and starting feeling really bad. Severe depression and anxiety. Now I'm back on it and starting to get better again.

I hate to break the news to you about the psychosis and all, but it sounds like you may have it. Drugs can do that. But I could be wrong. Talk to a doctor about it. And best of luck. I used accupuncture for cravings for weed, btw. Good luck to you.

Thanks for your reply.
I think the hardest part is believing you could be in psychosis. I think I am just a normal person who is constantly being judged.

And since I have a low self esteem I guess its easier to pick on me. I'm very introverted, so when I got drunk that night, I know I didn't do anything really embarrassing, but there is still a possibility cause there was memory gaps the next morning.

And the sad thing was that I got kicked out of the party for being too wasted, and I only got wasted that night because I wanted to "forget" about a tragic thing that happened in my life.

And it was the first time actually getting "drunk" for me that night, so I think I just took it overboard.

[Sierra83]

I used to be a pretty big pot user and used ecstasy as well. Had the same problems with delusions, and believing in conspiracies against me. Turns out I had bipolar disorder (which can include psychosis as part of the disorder). I'm now on two medications: Zyprexa and lithium, and am the most stable I've been in years.

I highly doubt people are truly out to get you as much as you believe they are, though when you're psychotic you're too far gone to know that. Try going to your doctor (or checking yourself in the hospital as I did) and describe your symptoms.