Even little things can set me off
So, I was at Walmart today, looking for distilled water to use for ironing my clothes. Couldn't find it in the automotive section, which is where I had always found it before. Asked a saleswoman, she said to look in the pharmacy section. Asked there, was told to look where the bottled drinking water is. Hello? It's not for drinking. Anyway, that started the usual snowball effect. I felt embarrassed in front of my boyfriend because, as usual, I seem to be clueless. I'm clueless, which feeds into my feeling stupid and inferior and unattractive and just generally a failure as a human being, and a waste of oxygen, living space, toilet paper, carbon, everything. Nobody but a total loser would allow themselves to get so upset over something so insignificant. If I'm such a loser, and I've known I'm a loser but have been living in denial, I should just take my boxcutter and finally slit my throat, which is what I think about doing every day. Screw it. I'm so tired of being so stupid and ****ed up.