living alone is worst, eating same, all life, eating more than can afford, possibly
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I adjusted my eating a lot. Leading a dismal path, PPI, losing mortgage insurance support, and before that, I aimed for a lowest cost diet. Good to focus on that primary goal. I followed some advice handed by GP, embarrassed if I was viewed as unhealthy... yeah, pleased with wholewheat bread and rice, only three eggs per week, etc. My fury always led me for years before this advice, using all my energy in exercise, feeling good. Told by friend: no bread or milk. I did quit bread for years. I gave up on my usual bacon sandwich with fried egg with cheese slice for all good employed mornings.
Then just µwaved bacon and µwaved scrambled eggs for the last 3 years. Still addicted to muesli eternally. Recent disturbance of a new goal of paying all heavy bills, with no budget for food at all. Rough! Every month goes by arrears of sorts. I have to stop eating. I just took on a very new lifestyle back on toast with marmite only. This first came up up during a four-month hospital inpatient session which has repeated. Offered plain cereal, porridge, coffee & toast... I took over the kitchen with strictly staff-only doors but made all the stuff myself. Running the ward. Taking any uneaten food from trays on racks of big heavy wheeled machines... mostly curry was on my menu.
I like food-making as an important task of interest when I have no job. Unsure how to balance my diet to leave enough to pay bills. Never thought I bought any luxurious home with high expenses. Girl left instantly for its size too small for her. High rent in spacious houses shared with her friends before.
Loneliness got me by the throat (theoretically) in a spirital mood of hitting the bed to relax with closed eyes in daytime. That's my brain fog
Now a life unable to feed myself overcoming me. I bet this happens to a lot of people? On verge of homelessness?
Habits lead me to consume any leftovers, and for years I would arrive home with a batch of groceries, starting with my treats, being whatever random stuff I pick because I haven't had for a long time, or never before. Sometimes snacks first. When mains are finished, I get back to snacks.