I know what it's like to really, deeply desire someone to the point your heart aches at night and you long for their touch and thats with SA which means I physically cannot speak to them and they can't speak to me.
But I also think that the above type of relationship isn't necessarily true love, it COULD grow into that but basically it's very strong attraction and affinity.
I can't really imagine loving just one person, men and women seem to get on quite well anyway and some people say you can fall in love with anyone if you just spend enough time in their company.
I dissagree with that, there are some men I hate when I just look at their faces like Joe Power and some members of the opposite sex who you know are going to stay friends no matter how much you talk the night away.
I don't know why but I always end up pushing guys away who like me, usually by acting like an obnoxious *****. Being a feminist it's not that I don't like men, infact if a man is good in my book I treat him with upmost respect but there's just something about the way they s****** or don't say very much or try change you or act put out about a vital favour and then I think if I DID find love there would always be some drawback like he's tight with money or dull in his ways.
So the uncertain nature of love, even when you finally find it is what makes me so willing to accept less. I'm sure we all know what it's like to walk around by ourselves all the time, in some cases we know what it's like to be gossiped about and pitied so having a partner who isn't the love of my life is an appealing option, I'm so sick of being alone and being SEEN alone.