Originally Posted by SkinnyPat
Did you check out the link to wikipedia?
I can't ever bring myself to say the words thank you when they give me something because it makes me cringe too much.
Why do you think you cringe?
I think it makes me cringe because it feels to me like showing the kind of behaviour/emotion towards them that I've always found impossible. Outside family it's very similar but I can just about get the words out (probably because I'd be in much bigger trouble if I didn't).
I checked out the link to wikipedia and beyond. There's a lot of vagueness about it and things such as clumsiness that didn't apply, but they keep stressing how each case is unique. Some things are quite striking,
-I was always very socially naive before the development of SAD and have taught myself most things intellectually (like devouring books on social skills and studying people hard)
-Am naturally blunt and challenge authority often in spite of my SAD
-The getting obsessively preoccupied in certain interests and forgetting to eat
-Also the extreme attention to detail
-The sensitivities to many stimuli (real trouble with the temperature, noise, light, smells)
-Have this weird long term memory (I can recall all the names on the register from my first year in primary school, assign most of my memories to a particular year, going back to 1978 ). Also had an unusually advanced drawing ability growing up
-The not experiencing grief or love very deeply and having great trouble reciprocating emotion
-The preference for devouring books containing facts and science than socialising with other kids (even those I wasn't anxious around)
-Weird vocal delivery and many made up words and odd sounds
There were more I noticed. But it's like they don't really know what they're talking about themselves so I can't take it seriously. I don't really believe I have any of the disorders I've read and doubt I'd pass enough criteria for this, in spite of what my doctor suspects. But it does seem very unusual not ever having affectionate feelings for parents and friends.