i havent watched cowboy bebop yet, shame on me, everyone urges me to do so, and from what i saw its great anime.
soo dude i understand everything but the game and anime part, why dont u play and watch anything anymore? :/ personally me i cant imagine my life without anime and music and that stuff (i wish games too but im too broke for that now) thats like only ray of light/fun there for me :/ how on earth can u not watch anime?
i can totally relate to u about obsessing with past tho, it feels like it will haunt me forever -___- but to not make it worse i just dont watch the stuff that would be nostalgical. i remember at time when i was having friends i was watching yugioh and shaman king and cartoons like mask, tmnt etc and yea me too if i watch those ever again, nostalgical **** kicks in and memories about that time n everything n it yea hurts soo muchh -__-
so um my advice would be? try to move on bro, even if its hard, do so, dont obsess over stuff u once liked, find something new to obsess about, there are plenty epic animes n games out there, get yoself into something new, make memories about this time ur at!
well this was more of a anime advice than life advice i guess lol but cant be helped since i totally dunno what to suggest about life, bcz i suk at it lol, but good luck!