My SA consists of mostly being afraid of people. It's somewhat like paranoia; or like being in a jungle and expecting a lion to jump out & attack. It intensifies the more people that are around, strangers and how much interaction goes on with them.
The one place I don't feel threatened is a Nia (neuromuscular intergrated action) exercise class. The worst case scenario is a party; or a crowded store. The other day in the grocery store was a particular bad one. It was packed and I could hardly wait to get out of there.
In the grocery store there was a young man, who was walking quickly towards me, I can't explain it but he had aggressive energy or I perceived it to be. I walked quickly away but he was going the same direction I was. Then I was nearly sprinting
away trying to get away from him and went behind some one who seemed harmless (who, gratefully, just smiled at me). I felt embarrassed, and all I could do was sort of laugh at myself. The fight or flight was certainly kicked into gear.
Does any one else have this same experience/problem? Any insights?
I don't really know why I'm afraid of people, bad experiences, I imagine, but everyone has those.