I feel like everything is starting to fall apart

[piano_lily]

I have been on the SAS site a couple of times and could not bring myself to join for some reason. Even though they try to help, however, it has gotten to the point that my own family members are beginning to grow tiresome of my issues.

I'm pretty sure my anxiety is hereditary. I have the best support from my mom because she has been treated for anxiety/panic attacks in the past. Although my SA is a little different than what she has, she understands what I'm going through. But even she is starting to become concerned.

I recently moved back home from another city where I was living with my boyfriend until we broke up. I wanted to stay in that city because my only friends live there and they understand my weirdness, but financially it was best to move back home.

I have had SA for as long as I can remember. It always takes me A WHILE to get used to people and talk with them openly and I'm not really sure why. I was treated when I was in college and the medication helped. Even after the doctor took me off of it I was still a lot better. Now that I have moved back, my SA has set in again and it is 10 times worse.

Does anyone know if paranoia is part of SA? I always seem to think people are talking about me or laughing at me...and sometimes I'm sure they are, but it can't be every time.

The time when I experience my anxiety the most is at work. I work in an office and the majority of the time I stay in my cubicle and do my work, but I can't help myself look at other people walking around and talking and I want to be able to do that. I have been there for a few months now and have not made any friends. I chat with a couple of people, but I can never bring myself to join conversation or connect with anyone.

I'm getting tired of being alone and I just want to connect with people and enjoy my life.

[laura024]

Welcome. I always think people are talking about me or laughing at me too, so I think that may be a part of it.

[Toad Licker]

Hey piano lily

[Toad Licker]

[Stallion86]

Originally Posted by piano_lily

I have been on the SAS site a couple of times and could not bring myself to join for some reason. Even though they try to help, however, it has gotten to the point that my own family members are beginning to grow tiresome of my issues.

I'm pretty sure my anxiety is hereditary. I have the best support from my mom because she has been treated for anxiety/panic attacks in the past. Although my SA is a little different than what she has, she understands what I'm going through. But even she is starting to become concerned.

I recently moved back home from another city where I was living with my boyfriend until we broke up. I wanted to stay in that city because my only friends live there and they understand my weirdness, but financially it was best to move back home.

I have had SA for as long as I can remember. It always takes me A WHILE to get used to people and talk with them openly and I'm not really sure why. I was treated when I was in college and the medication helped. Even after the doctor took me off of it I was still a lot better. Now that I have moved back, my SA has set in again and it is 10 times worse.

Does anyone know if paranoia is part of SA? I always seem to think people are talking about me or laughing at me...and sometimes I'm sure they are, but it can't be every time.

The time when I experience my anxiety the most is at work. I work in an office and the majority of the time I stay in my cubicle and do my work, but I can't help myself look at other people walking around and talking and I want to be able to do that. I have been there for a few months now and have not made any friends. I chat with a couple of people, but I can never bring myself to join conversation or connect with anyone.

I'm getting tired of being alone and I just want to connect with people and enjoy my life.

It's not paranoia, it's part of what SA is all about....it's part of the reason we get all these attacks in social situations, subconsciously we are thinking that we are being judged. And while in some situations we are, there are truly some that you're not. We're NOT that important that everyone is talking about us but it only takes one time for us to find out someone was in fact talking about us and it makes us paranoid EVERY other time.

Join a conversation, you're a female so it's even easier if you talk to guys, they'll probably think you like them, you'll see how it works unless you say something weird but if you do WHO cares anyways? Let me know how it goes!

[Just Lurking]

Welcome

[piano_lily]

Originally Posted by Stallion86

It's not paranoia, it's part of what SA is all about....it's part of the reason we get all these attacks in social situations, subconsciously we are thinking that we are being judged. And while in some situations we are, there are truly some that you're not. We're NOT that important that everyone is talking about us but it only takes one time for us to find out someone was in fact talking about us and it makes us paranoid EVERY other time.

Thanks to everyone for welcoming me!

Stallion86, this is exactly how I feel. I do my best to put it out of my head, but it just keeps creeping back. Someone suggested that I set goals for myself with talking to people. So Monday I'm going to start a conversation with someone at work and not let feelings of embarrassment or nervousness get to me.

[millenniumman75]

PianoLily,

Welcome to the site. While there is a chance that SA is hereditary, a lot of it is also learned behavior. Chances are that your mother may have gone to counseling after you had grown up, so part of the way she coped with the anxiety was kind of taught to you. Since anxiety is also non-verbal, that may have also had a subliminal effect, too.

We learn about life from the very time we are born. We just did not know it yet.