hi everyone

[who2q]

My name is Susan and i suffer from post traumatic stress disorder. I have had this problem since I was a child. I have tried Hypnotists which didn't help but it did pinpoint where and how this started. It all started on a family vacation with 6 people crammed into a car with my best friend sitting next to me. She chewed, popped, and spit her salvia onto me while chewing gum. Now I 'm claustrophobic and I can't stand people who chew gum. I freak suffer from panic attacks and no therapists or psychiatry works. The only thing I found that helps is a mp3 player, with this I can block out all the distractions and function. I am so tired of taking pills that do nothing but make me sleep. Recently my job took away all radios and mp3 players. The doctor I see who is a psychiatrist wrote me a note explaining my problem and my disability to the company I work for. They have did nothing to comply except but me out on medical leave. Can anyone help or lead me in the right direction. I hate being like this I would love to go to the movies, attend church or even see my kids concerts at school. I just want to be normal can anyone please help. Please excuse any misspellings I have a hard time while taking seroquel thanks

[Rayacle]

Originally Posted by who2q

My name is Susan and i suffer from post traumatic stress disorder. I have had this problem since I was a child. I have tried Hypnotists which didn't help but it did pinpoint where and how this started. It all started on a family vacation with 6 people crammed into a car with my best friend sitting next to me. She chewed, popped, and spit her salvia onto me while chewing gum. Now I 'm claustrophobic and I can't stand people who chew gum. I freak suffer from panic attacks and no therapists or psychiatry works. The only thing I found that helps is a mp3 player, with this I can block out all the distractions and function. I am so tired of taking pills that do nothing but make me sleep. Recently my job took away all radios and mp3 players. The doctor I see who is a psychiatrist wrote me a note explaining my problem and my disability to the company I work for. They have did nothing to comply except but me out on medical leave. Can anyone help or lead me in the right direction. I hate being like this I would love to go to the movies, attend church or even see my kids concerts at school. I just want to be normal can anyone please help. Please excuse any misspellings I have a hard time while taking seroquel thanks

Hiya Susan it is great to meet you. Do you feel better after posting? At first I was ripping my fingernails off with all kinds of anxiety. But now I am trying to make everyone feel welcome somehow. I realize everyone here felt like me the first time and I want to make them feel better too. I was all worried about getting flamed at first it's good people realize this is a place of healing and not war hehe.

I find mp3 to work well too, but at work I was never allowed to use them either. I would tend to let myself totally be absorbed in my job and forget what's happening around me. Of course if your job is customer service oriented I don't know..I failed at that.

I was a victim of panic attacks when I tried to do full time customer service, it was sooo embarrasing and I quit shortly after the first one. The co-workers were nice and tried to motivate me but I was too far gone and quit. Funny part is the HR manager said this job sucks and "I agree, I wouldn't want to work on the phones doing customer service either!" LOL and I felt somewhat less regretful but still I miss the income..

Wow hypnotherapy? You are BRAVE to go to something like that! I am always worried I will say something private and embarrasing while I am hypnotized, and then they would ask me questions about what I said..I would panic heh. I am afraid of not having control of my consciousness and would never try it. So kudos to you, for being so brave.

I dunno if I can help but it sounds like you are a great person already and you are a good mother to your child. I think it would be a great idea to go to those concerts with your kid, it would help him/her feel good knowing mommy is there cheering them on. It sounds like you already have a good idea how to feel better, and just need to take the first step. Go for it! I will be cheering for you.

I think you are normal but like me, need to give yourself some credit and try to fight those negative thoughts. I am finally giving that cognitive behavioral thinking therapy a shot. Basically I do something, and of course the first thought in my mind is ALWAYS negative . But then I challenge myself and think the complete opposite and try it out. So far I can't believe how great it is working. My sister hadn't talked to me for almost a month because I am always so down. I tried one day to use all happy words in my emails and I was shocked that she decided to come visit. And she says "I like you a lot better when you are in a good mood!". It hit me even more after that, I am pushing people away and it's not their fault...it is mine.

Have a good one and good luck! I think you will get a lot of help here because everyone is nice and understand since they know how it feels. Great job making the first step. Don't worry about typos I bet I have a ton of them here, haha. At least you don't make embarrasing mistakes like I did before But I laugh about them now! I remember typing "I want you" to a girl on a forum instead of saying "if you want" and she was all flabbergasted by that, but realized it was a typo. It took me a week to get over the embarrasement but found out she wasn't really mad, and it laughed after that, LOL.

See ya later Susan

-Ray

[TorLin]

HELLO

who2q




Welcome to SAS !

[Prakas]

I'm sorry, I dont know what advice I can give you, but welcome to the forums. You will find plenty of understanding people here.

[matty]

Hey Susan, this is a pretty good place. Nice to have you here

Matty

[millenniumman75]

Welcome, Who2Q!

[Toad Licker]

Hey Susan, welcome to