Social Anxiety Support

Raindrop · 05-02-2011, 11:48 PM

Well, obviously I'm new here. Just made a profile. It's 4 am where I am and I've been up all night because I'm really angry about having to feel ugly all the time and having to feel like a complete loser compared to all the normal people. I've been on medication in the past and all it did was stop my panic attacks; I still didn't like myself. I was bullied since I was 9 because boys were always telling me how ugly I was. That went up to grade 12 and then after that, I was just ignored. I didn't have a date until I was 25. I'm in a relationship still with the 2nd guy who ever expressed any interest in me. He expects me to just "snap out of it" and be confident based on delusions of adequacy. And as for being ugly, I should just pretend I'm attractive and look at all the other ugly people out there who are insane enough to think they are hot stuff. Apparently they are fine examples of how to live life in a state of positive psychosis. I was unaware that simply being confident was enough able to warp the fabric of reality and make ugly people shimmering visions of beauty to the weak minded.

Anyway, it's the middle of the night and I'm rambling. I have no idea what the hell I am doing.

Timothy Glaze · 05-03-2011, 12:27 AM

Hey Raindrop! Great to have you here! There are a LOT of people in the same place as you right now. Hope you find your answers here. Cheers!

Toad Licker · 05-03-2011, 10:34 AM

Hey Rebecca, welcome to

millenniumman75 · 05-03-2011, 11:21 PM

Welcome, Raindrop!

pimkersyf · 05-03-2011, 11:35 PM

Hello!

05-02-2011, 11:48 PM	#1 (permalink)
Raindrop Status: SAS Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Canada Gender: Female Posts: 7	Greetings Well, obviously I'm new here. Just made a profile. It's 4 am where I am and I've been up all night because I'm really angry about having to feel ugly all the time and having to feel like a complete loser compared to all the normal people. I've been on medication in the past and all it did was stop my panic attacks; I still didn't like myself. I was bullied since I was 9 because boys were always telling me how ugly I was. That went up to grade 12 and then after that, I was just ignored. I didn't have a date until I was 25. I'm in a relationship still with the 2nd guy who ever expressed any interest in me. He expects me to just "snap out of it" and be confident based on delusions of adequacy. And as for being ugly, I should just pretend I'm attractive and look at all the other ugly people out there who are insane enough to think they are hot stuff. Apparently they are fine examples of how to live life in a state of positive psychosis. I was unaware that simply being confident was enough able to warp the fabric of reality and make ugly people shimmering visions of beauty to the weak minded. Anyway, it's the middle of the night and I'm rambling. I have no idea what the hell I am doing.

05-03-2011, 12:27 AM	#2 (permalink)
Timothy Glaze Status: SAS Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Bombay Gender: Male Age: 26 Posts: 27	Hey Raindrop! Great to have you here! There are a LOT of people in the same place as you right now. Hope you find your answers here. Cheers! __________________ "Tell me, Tool, what dominates your thoughts?" The Imass shrugged before replying. "I think of futility, Adjunct." "Do all Imass think of futility?" "No few think at all." "Why is that?" The Imass leaned his head to one side and regarded her. "Because, Adjunct, it is futile."

05-03-2011, 10:34 AM	#3 (permalink)
Toad Licker Status: Broken Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: A Fruitloop Daydream Gender: Male Posts: 83,694	Hey Rebecca, welcome to __________________ I've been swallowed up by greed. I've been spat upon by lust If they ain't playing with your money they're playing with your trust And I'm trying so hard to stop sitting still To gather the juice that's been spent or been spilled To find a spark in myself that hasn't been killed Cause if Death doesn't get you then Life surely will I've been chasing a lie I was sold Running down thieves and fool's gold And these Christmas dreams are just painted coal - Bree Sharp

05-03-2011, 11:21 PM	#4 (permalink)
millenniumman75 Status: Mentor Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Dayton, OH Gender: Male Age: 37 Posts: 91,853	Welcome, Raindrop! __________________ millenniumman75 You are a success story waiting to happen! Live and let live VACUUMS more than a Hoover.... Live and HELP live is better! TROLL ALERT STATUS: CHAT -> BERT FORUMS -> ERNIE (troll activity on the increase) WATCH WHAT YOU TYPE!

05-03-2011, 11:35 PM	#5 (permalink)
pimkersyf Status: SAS Member Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 114	Hello!