time for help

[wallflower29]

I posted this in another forum part, didn't realize the 30+ one existed, I don't know how to move it.

I have had what I think is SA for a very long time. I am 32 years old and hold down a job with a wife and a house. I feel like I have somehow faked my way through life so far, in high school I dropped out because I could not handle sitting in a classroom. I couldn't learn at all, all i would do is sit there full of anxiety. I was able to get my GED and have a job but it requires very little interaction with people. The only people I talk to on a regular basis is my wife and mom, both of which basically just think I'm not really a people person. I worry constantly about them and it's so stressful just having those thoughts. At work I cannot sit in the lunchroom because I am so nervous around people, I don't eat all day at work. My mouth is so dry I cannot even swallow food in a cafeteria type setting. If someone does talk to me, my face immediately turns red, which then makes me feel even worse, especially when people mention it. It's getting to the point where going to work is very difficult, but I know I have obligations to my family so I will just suffer through. Sorry for telling my whole life story here, but is what I am explaining SA or am I just totally screwed up in some other way?

[cavemanslaststand]

Yes that does sound like SA.

It sounds like me too. I skip breakfast and lunch and I actually drink beer before coming into to work and suck on lots of sugar-free breath mints or Hall's cough drops to hide my alcholism.

I've avoided lunch rooms my whole life. I can barely even show up to work because it is so public. I skipped a lot of school and now I skip a lot of work too (I haven't been to work since last week due to anxiety). Luckily I work in IT and they somehow put up with my odd behavior streaks of absenses.

[ToucanSam]

there's really no reason to suffer in silence for so long. Have you seen a therapist?

[BlueScreen]

Have you talked about the way you feel with someone who cares about you? I agree that perhaps also having a conversation with a doctor/therapist could do you the world of good. And please, use the forums as a resource, we know what its like and there are some great people here who can really be of help.