Yeah I feel this way too but try to remember that its not 'you' whose repelling people, its your anxiety and feelings of being uncomfortable and self conscious. Also allot of people are a**Hol*s
There's so much propaganda about mental health awareness, if youve problems go speak to someone and we all shouldnt stigmatise or judge people who are mentally ill yet I feel judged every single day and despite trying again and again and again to get help and speak to someone, no one cares nor do they want to listen.
Mental health problems are so debilitating and half of the reason they are is because people judge so much and make you feel like theres something deeply wrong with your character and personality. Unless youre actually hitler you dont deserve the judgment and rejection that you get from other people.