I make great first impressions. The people get to know me the more they dislike me.
I am always liked at first. Then slowly through numerous small interactions they begin to sense how awkward I am. I can feel the change on how they view me. Sometimes I mutate words together in attempts to have BS conversations. It never turns out well. I can talk about serious issues fine. It's the conversations about nothing that kill me. I left every friend I knew to quit drugs. Now I have not one friend in the world. It's depressing at times...very depressing. I feel like the world sees a stupid sign on my forehead. I'm learning to live with that. On the other hand I don't know if I want the hassle of friendships again. But deep down I would love someone to relate to and with. Anybody else feel this way?
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