I'm wondering if I am the only one who has reached a point in their life where they simply know, beyond any shadow of doubt, that they will never have a relationship. I mean, where you have gotten past the point of feeling anguish about it and have just decided to put those hopes and dreams behind you once and for all, and get on with whatever parts of this life are actually accessible to you?
I had been flirting with that epiphany on and off for a decade or so, ever since I learned conclusively how profoundly unattractive the female gender perceives me to be. But I reached the point of complete acceptance about a year ago (at age 51), when in addition to all of my other negative traits, I developed Peyronie's disease. It was as if God himself said "haven't you gotten the message yet that a relationship is not for you? Well, here, maybe throwing yet one more very specific roadblock in your way will finally convince you." And while accepting the inevitability of this didn't result in me becoming a happier person, it did seem to lower my stress level about spending my life alone.
No, I'm not visiting this forum again out of a desire for someone to tell me there is still hope, because I know in my heart that door is locked forever now. But I never get to talk openly about any of this, and I think I might like to be able to do so at least once before the end. I would also sort of like to know if I am perhaps not as unique as I sometimes feel I must be, in terms of having reached this degree of acceptance of a fate that seems to be beyond the imaginings of most normal people.
I had been flirting with that epiphany on and off for a decade or so, ever since I learned conclusively how profoundly unattractive the female gender perceives me to be. But I reached the point of complete acceptance about a year ago (at age 51), when in addition to all of my other negative traits, I developed Peyronie's disease. It was as if God himself said "haven't you gotten the message yet that a relationship is not for you? Well, here, maybe throwing yet one more very specific roadblock in your way will finally convince you." And while accepting the inevitability of this didn't result in me becoming a happier person, it did seem to lower my stress level about spending my life alone.
No, I'm not visiting this forum again out of a desire for someone to tell me there is still hope, because I know in my heart that door is locked forever now. But I never get to talk openly about any of this, and I think I might like to be able to do so at least once before the end. I would also sort of like to know if I am perhaps not as unique as I sometimes feel I must be, in terms of having reached this degree of acceptance of a fate that seems to be beyond the imaginings of most normal people.