Clarity

[WineKitty]

After a summer and fall of meds, I have been off Wellbutrin (before that a trial of Celexa) for a few weeks now. I didnt realize how edgy and short fused that crap was making me. And it was actually INCREASING my anxiety in some ways I think, though I seemed to be a bit more ballsy so to speak.

I cherish having clarity and dont think that I am going to try any more meds. Maybe there is a med out there or a cocktail of meds that would help me but I have no interest in really trying. I dont think I had complete clarity on WB, and what I mean by that is my short fused angry snaps seemed perfectly logical and justifiable to me. And they kind of were but I think my reaction to things was more of an overreaction, if that makes any sense.

I was exercising like a madwoman while on WB and that has tapered off, sadly. I even lost 10 pounds without even trying ( but have now gained back two ).

I want to strengthen myself but I think natural is the only way to go, FOR ME. What got me to stop taking the pills is that I wasnt that much better off with them and that is something I have noticed in reading posts on SAS. People that are taking a multitude of drugs still seem anxious and unhappy. I am NOT saying they dont help people really I am not; I am just not convinced that the success rate of meds is very high.

I have been trying to spend less time sitting on my *** on the computer; the internet can be a real drain on my time.

I am 40 years old and I have lots of things I want to accomplish, and I think I am feeling more positive these days.

I cannot help but think that is due in part to stopping the WB.

I intend to start using my time more wisely; and to even consider therapy of some sort.

I seek clarity in all things; not just from meds. I want to be more calm, more peaceful....and not so focused on my anxiety and issues. I have spent far too much time of my life pining away over that.

Anyway, I am probably rambling. Just a few thoughts.

[MissMay1977]

I took wellbutrin for 2 years. It lifted my depression but the side effects were destroying me. I had HORRIBLE bad breath which made me have low self esteem. I had extreme anxiety as well.