I think I am the worst
Never been to a party
Never went out/ hang out with any friends
Never had any real friends
Never had a girlfriend
Never had a date
Never spent more than 10 minutes alone with a girl
When people find out about this, what will they think of me? Ofcourse im a loser.
You're only a loser if you keep calling yourself a loser and dwelling on all what you haven't done. Look, there's still time to achieve all the things you want. I'm constantly beating myself up for the fact that I've hardly lived at all but in the end, what does it matter? There's time
. The world isn't going to end tomorrow.
There's all this peer pressure-- we have
to have kissed someone by a certain age, we have
to have had sex at a certain age. Well I say screw all that. Wanting these things because everyone else has them or has experienced them is wanting for the wrong reasons, imo. You should want them for yourself and only when you're ready. I had my first kiss when I was 17 (just shy of my 18th). It was horrible. I felt a little better afterwards because I'd finally 'done it' (lol not that 'it') but no one else knew I hadn't been kissed up until that point so it's not like it mattered. I didn't like the guy, and I didn't see him again. I felt a little disgusted with myself afterwards for letting it happen because the guy was kind of gross. I would have prefered my first kiss to be better than that and if that meant waiting a few more years, so be it (that's not to say I had huge expectations of what it should've been like, I just mean I would've liked it to have been with someone who I genuinely liked as a person).
Don't worry so much about these things. They'll happen. I'm still a virgin and I used to worry about it all the time but at this point, I don't care anymore. I'm sure I'll meet someone nice eventually and if they're not understanding about it, they're not worth it anyway.