You Wake Up Depressed and Everything looks Hopeless, Total 360 from yesterday
This happened to me today. I have been doing really good, making huge progress in SA and getting my life back, really confident and my mind was strong. I was brushing off minor setbacks as no big deal. Thinking rationally.
Now it's like a 360. In my head all I hear is my voice criticizing me and telling me things like "Did you really think that was going to work and everybody hadn't noticed that you were acting strange, manic like and probably thought you were on drugs."
It's got me depressed, shaky and scared again about being hit by a car back in Nov. and them missing a Traumatic Brain Injury. I never had Paranoia before but now I have it really bad. I think people are planning things against me. And at times I've had reverse SA and had to be told that I'm talking too much. I have already lost any sort of volume control and know I have been overheard inappropriate things. I've already destroyed 1 friendship and I had very few to begin with. Suddenly I'm hideous in the mirror again and just ridiculous looking overall.
Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to one's courage