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You Wake Up Depressed and Everything looks Hopeless, Total 360 from yesterday

This happened to me today. I have been doing really good, making huge progress in SA and getting my life back, really confident and my mind was strong. I was brushing off minor setbacks as no big deal. Thinking rationally.

Now it's like a 360. In my head all I hear is my voice criticizing me and telling me things like "Did you really think that was going to work and everybody hadn't noticed that you were acting strange, manic like and probably thought you were on drugs."

It's got me depressed, shaky and scared again about being hit by a car back in Nov. and them missing a Traumatic Brain Injury. I never had Paranoia before but now I have it really bad. I think people are planning things against me. And at times I've had reverse SA and had to be told that I'm talking too much. I have already lost any sort of volume control and know I have been overheard inappropriate things. I've already destroyed 1 friendship and I had very few to begin with. Suddenly I'm hideous in the mirror again and just ridiculous looking overall.

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Have you been diagnosed with any conditions (beside SA?) It sounds like a bit like bipolar.


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I have a lot of conditions, some not even diagnosed.Ultra Rapid Bipolar, Paranoia, General Anxiety, Irrational beliefs that for every 1 good thing that happens 2 bad will next. Major Depression. And now maybe a Tramatic Brain Injury. It's like being happy is a just a big setup for a huge depressive fall that hurts too much.

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This happened to me today. I have been doing really good, making huge progress in SA and getting my life back, really confident and my mind was strong. I was brushing off minor setbacks as no big deal. Thinking rationally.

Now it's like a 360. In my head all I hear is my voice criticizing me and telling me things like "Did you really think that was going to work and everybody hadn't noticed that you were acting strange, manic like and probably thought you were on drugs."

It's got me depressed, shaky and scared again about being hit by a car back in Nov. and them missing a Traumatic Brain Injury. I never had Paranoia before but now I have it really bad. I think people are planning things against me. And at times I've had reverse SA and had to be told that I'm talking too much. I have already lost any sort of volume control and know I have been overheard inappropriate things. I've already destroyed 1 friendship and I had very few to begin with. Suddenly I'm hideous in the mirror again and just ridiculous looking overall.
Sorry your going through this, personally yeah I woke up 1:am today cant sleep now I have staying up past 2 months like this, I like gaming but haven't been gaming at all so things are looking bad
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I can relate. I have these ups and downs daily or every few days, it seems like.
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This happened to me today. I have been doing really good, making huge progress in SA and getting my life back, really confident and my mind was strong. I was brushing off minor setbacks as no big deal. Thinking rationally.

Now it's like a 360. In my head all I hear is my voice criticizing me and telling me things like "Did you really think that was going to work and everybody hadn't noticed that you were acting strange, manic like and probably thought you were on drugs."

It's got me depressed, shaky and scared again about being hit by a car back in Nov. and them missing a Traumatic Brain Injury. I never had Paranoia before but now I have it really bad. I think people are planning things against me. And at times I've had reverse SA and had to be told that I'm talking too much. I have already lost any sort of volume control and know I have been overheard inappropriate things. I've already destroyed 1 friendship and I had very few to begin with. Suddenly I'm hideous in the mirror again and just ridiculous looking overall.
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Pay attention to your thoughts

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Ignore your thoughts~

(a.k.a none of your psycological thoughts are true)

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