06-12-2012, 07:35 AM
Status: SAS Member
Join Date: Jun 2012
Poem about social anxiety
Waking up daily unconsciously ready to become what I am programmed to be.
A robotic existence without will, a chameleon that blends in for protection.
Often changing colors, desperate to hide.
My voice says something but my body shows another.
Yet something works against me, inside I am drowning.
My truth pours out of me when least expected as I am left with embarrassment.
Paralyzed, horrified at its attempts of betrayal and exposing me.
Frustrated, ashamed I try to conceal it back within and banish it for its misbehavior.
Worrying constantly of the next time it will try to reveal my truth.
Every time it sneaks out I withdraw more from others and I fuel my shame.
Limiting connections frightened and left without energy after each interaction.
It wasn’t until I started to question who I really was
With courage and intention of truly finding out
That I was able to find the answer by embracing my true self with love and compassion
that I am able to face my reality. I no longer have anything to hide.
I am no longer afraid to share my thoughts. I am no longer afraid to speak my voice.
I no longer fear my self will betray me. I am no longer afraid to be.
Because I am true to myself, I am true to my soul.