Social Anxiety Background
I am eighteen and have probably had some sort of social anxiety for the past five years.
-Previously, I had tried, without success, lexapro, wellbutrin, and effexor. None had any positive effects and they made me think all SSRIs were worthless.
-Klonopin PRN. Klonopin has always been great for anxiety but doesn't seem to hit as strong now that I'm on Celexa. Luckily, the Celexa makes me not really need it anymore.
A few minutes ago, I was outside looking over Lake Michigan. I was just taking a few minutes in between classes to think out by the beautiful lake view, and I started reflecting on the changes I've seen in myself within the past couple weeks. I decided then that I should return to the forums and report my story here.
I had been trying to cope with social anxiety throughout high school and into my freshmen year of college. I thought I naturally cured my SA the summer before college started but a few weeks into my first semester away from home, I relapsed. Luckily, two weeks ago exactly, when my psychiatrist was refilling my klonopin scrip he asked me to try Celexa as well. I was really against the idea of trying another SSRI but I agreed to try it out. Now I can't thank him enough for the suggestion.
The positive benefits of Celexa slowly crept up on me. Gradually, I began to notice that I was feeling more comfortable with myself. Now the effects are even clearer though.
I feel like I am normal again. And I feel like I love myself again. I no longer dread doing things outside, no longer dread going to class or going out on weekends. I no longer feel inferior than everybody around me. I almost feel superior. I am charming and funny again. I feel like a better friend and boyfriend now. I am confident and calm. I can talk to anyone, and though I can't guarantee we'll have an interesting conversation, I know I won't get incredibly awkward anymore. I am finally safe in my own skin.
I have had no ill side effects from the medication though I do remember getting pretty bad diarrhea the first day when I took it on an empty stomach. I take it with meals now :3 Sexually though, everything is fine. I was scared of not being able to get it up but I've still been having incredible sex with my girlfriend so no worries there.