So, I've started CBT, went to the second session last evening. I was given a list of "Distorted Automatic Thoughts", and was told to rate how much I think it is like me to think that way. Most of them I rated myself 7 and over.
this was disturbing. I've always thought of myself as a basically positive person, and non-judgmental. However, I promised myself (knowing that part of CBT consists of these lists, and rating them) i would be brutally honest with myself.
At the end, I did not like what I saw. I have been dealing with a severe period of self-loathing since this morning.
I cried in the session, and my counsellor tried to tell me that these feelings have a tendency to persist and even worsen for a while. Naturally I scoffed. Scoff scoff, I said.
She was right on. Now I feel terrible. Anyone else try CBT and have a spell like this?
L