Anybody else also dealing with this?
It kind of weaves itself nicely into the vicious circle. My SA keeps me at home... In my room... with the internet.
I remember not too long ago I thought I had skin cancer. I spent weeks researching malignant melanoma and checking myself, same with testicular cancer. It's really horrible when it happens much like the horrible thoughts I feel due to SA it completely occupies my mind and I'm unable to focus on anything else but dying :l The doctor confirmed the little moles I have are completely fine but I still feel sick with worry.
Lately I've been fearing a heart attack. Any slight pain in my chest and I'm straight on the net again... frantically gathering symptoms, statistics, cures etc but the weird thing is when I have one of these episodes I start developing certain symptoms like "little pains in the arm".
When I manage to occupy my mind i.e playing a cool game I feel great. But for some RIDICULOUS reason I think to myself "it must of all been in my head... I don't fail any pain or anything" then I think "pain"... then I magically develop symptoms again and it starts all over.
It's incredibly frustrating I'd just like to be able to relax but there's always something like this on my mind, driving me to the brink of insanity!