When you dont have a job or a car, and all you do is sit in the house all day everyday, it kinda gets nuts. Sometimes I cry, play video games to distract myself, I sleep, I search for work, I lay with my dog, I attempt to call old friends, who they themselfs no longer want anything to do with me, and that makes it so much worse for me, knowing your old friends really hate you because they think your a loser because of your SA.