I have 2 kids--one is in college, and one is in middle school. My oldest son is very outgoing, has lots of friends, can talk to anybody, my youngest is very shy. My kids don't know about my SA.My husband does but doesn't acknowledge it or help me with it. My kids have been my "friends" over the years and they are who I get affection from. I often wonder what I will do when they are grown. Having kids has forced and does force me to get out more and do things I wouldn't otherwise do, but now that they are older I find I am home alone most of the time. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything or go anywhere. I've just recently begun to look online for help.