Hey, i think uncontrolable blushing is kind of really awesome/ super cute.
My skin is a bit too dark to even show blushing
ever.. But my best girlfriend does it all the time, the perhaps awkward uncontrolable blushes, & we all think it's super cute.. The sometimes salmon pink from head to boobs, makes her, her.
*Sorry, i realise that is
totally unhelpful & i have completely missed your point. Just had to say it..
But i get the overbearing freakouts about your physicality. I do have that, but in a different way.. I think it's worse when no one else can see it. (or at least accept it as any sort of issue).. because they don't get it.
hope you stick around here
xx