Originally Posted by adam28
No you are making sense. It's hard not to dwell on the past but you have to learn from it and move on. Beating yourself up accomplishes nothing, just think through what you did wrong and then let it go. And I know what you mean about sometimes just wanting to become buddhist. It sounds crazy but I've looked into it a bit and have kicked around the idea of moving to India at some point in the future to be a buddhist monk. I'm a long way away from actually doing that, but it seems like if things don't go well it's not a bad option. A trip to India for a few years to try and find myself wouldn't hurt...
I thought about the same thing, a few years back.